Ripped to the tits on drink and drugs...

One thing that has surprised me in my last couple of adventures is how druggy parts of the bear scene are.  Maybe I just didn't notice before or maybe its because some of the guys I've been socialising with are more into it but there were times it felt like I was the only guy not on anything other than alcohol...  The RVT has a bit of a reputation as a fairly druggy scene, but I was surprised that it was going on so much at XXL too (especially given the publicity over the death of Kevin Greening who had been at an event in the venue where XXL lives the night of his death).  It wasn't overt drug taking (the management aren't stupid I'm sure of that) but I was certainly aware that a lot of the guys were more than just drunk...

I don't take drugs.  I've tried various things but its never really had a draw for me.  I suspect part of it is because I'm a bit of a control freak.  I really don't like the idea of loosing control and the short term memory loss that is a common side effect of Ketamine (which seems to be the drug of choice as far as I could tell)  frankly terrifies me.  Doing something seriously wreckless while out of it and not actually remembering it?  No thanks!  Thankfully people on K are generally just a bit fuzzy around the edges and wobbly rather than completely out of it or on a complete buzz (I hate being around people on coke - turns perfectly lovely people into total arseholes!) so I didn't feel uncomfortable (especially when I'm fuzzy around the edges myself due to the drink!).  I don't think I'd ever consider it 'normal' though, I guess I'm just too straight-laced at heart...